I Can't Trust What I Can't See

My dream last night was beyond weird but what was weirder was how sad it made me feel.

I dreamt that I was visiting my parents in Doraville and when I gt there my mother told me I was late for my wedding. MY WEDDING??? She threw me my dress and after putting it on and looking into a mirror it was the most hideous thing ever! It had chiffon butterfly wing sleeves, a pleated front, and chiffon bottom that stopped at my knees.

For some reason after getting dressed my mother took me to get my nails done for my wedding and while I was there they did Christmas designs on my toes and my hands alternated the colors green and red.

Some how I ended up in a car riding passenger to my wedding and when I got there I just walked in and walked to the alter. I didnt see my groom so when I turned to ask where he was I noticed that my witnesses were every single guy that I dated or had sex with and they were all dressed as grooms. Not one female. Not one friend.

When I turned back to look where my groom should have been...There he was, but where I should've seen a face I only saw blackness. Like an abyss. He extended his hand to me and I just couldnt take it. I refused to take his hand because I couldnt see his face.

I woke up crying and I still feel sad about it, but I dont know why.